Dreamed on August 26, 2017 at 7:03am
In my current waking-reality home, I hear a child’s voice shouting from outside below the balcony. I ignore it and go do something in the bathroom. When I come out seconds later the eight-year-old girl is in my home standing near the bedroom. She asks where our mother is and says “Don’t worry, if I wanted to kill her I would have done that.” She’s holding a long, thin knife with a wooden handle (?). She goes to sit and talk to our slovenly mother, then slightly slashes the woman’s upper arm. The police gently take her away.
*Note: My grandmother in waking-life died this day, August 26, 2017, at 1:58pm at Washington Hospital, 2000 Mowry Ave., Freemont, CA 94538, after the removal of her colon and suffering a stroke. Her face looked tortured, mouth open, bottom jaw hanging to the right. A black, endless hole replaced where her teeth were.
Rising to heaven; Newness; Connection; Need; Heaven within and hell without; Ability to stand in hell; Move beyond; Purify; Forever complete; Rising to heaven is forever complete; Rising to heaven is forever capable; Rising to heaven is forever capable due to restoration; Problem and resolution; New and old unite to solve problems; New looks to old for guidance; Without hesitation; Finalize; The new does not hesitate finalizing the guide; Choice; Determined; Easy; Minimize; Easily determining the desired effect; Controlled; The new controls the guide; The new replaces the incapable guide; Offering; Drain; To drain of strength; Protecting the new; Separation of the new and the incapable guide.
- L’Amica (F4)(Upright): Friend; Confidant/Best friend; Relationship of trust (Vera Sibilla Italiana, 2007, p. 4).
- Morte (P5)(Upright): Death; Abandonment; Complete detachment from a situation (p. 5).
- La Donna di Servizio (Q8)(Upright): Help (p. 4).
- Amore (C4)(Upright/Bottom of Deck): Love; Passion that arises or flourishes again (p. 3).
Becoming my own best friend and source of help depends upon complete detachment from those whom are incapable. This is where Love resides.
Strategy in Waking-Reality:
After a life’s worth of attempts to create a healthy relationship with my mother, I now release her. She and I were together the day of the death of my grandmother, yet were still unable to come together and mourn as a family. Rather than submit to her habitual victimhood, I attempted to communicate, to understand, to collaborate in a way that would satisfy us both. When unable, I detached. This time for good. Though I remain open to her when she reaches out, I now do so with clear eyes. This is self-love, self-friendship and self-help.
Vera Sibilla Italiana. (2007). Lo Scarabeo: Torino, Italy.
Published August 28, 2017 9:07pm — JCN