Dreamed on December 10, 2016 7:41am
A type of Tough Mudder challenge is taking place from the Mission district down to the Powell street BART station in San Francisco, Ca. I was with a couple of people, as we started in the Mission then ended up at the station. Thousands of people were out, the weather was sunny, it was noon. We hurried across the street as the crossing light was turning red and lost one of our group members in the crowed. When we located her she had a busted lip. Someone she knew hit her but she wouldn’t say why. We all continued to walk, then ended up at the station. There were lots of people there from my waking-life high school. The three of us took a seat on the outdoor bleachers, and watched five men run directly up the outside of a five-story, straight, inclined building. Only two made it all the way and they did it in a matter of a few seconds. About four circular piles of feces were left on the wall, which I also saw somewhere rear the Mission. In the group behind me was a woman I noticed who kept looking at me or trying to get my attention. Frustrated, I asked her if I could help her and she replied she’s my “QT”. Not knowing what that meant I asked her to explain. She said it had to do with my therapy. She asked if I wanted her to mark me down as attended, even though I missed my session. I was surprised at her assistance and, with thanks, told her yes.
Challenging the past; Challenging the status quo; Self-actualization requires challenging the status quo; Moving against opposition; Challenge prompts release; Challenge can be painful; Life, whether easy or challenging, includes pain; Reaching the goal against all odds; Success means meeting the shadow; Striving to evolve; Accomplishment; Survival of the fittest; The Emperor knows surviving and thriving require a release of waste; My shadow seeks my attention; My shadow can take my life or give me life; Engage the unknown; Self-knowledge can take my life or give me life; Attending to self-knowledge without being physically present; Self-knowledge has become a subconscious/unconscious/intuitive action.
Tarot Cards Pulled:
- The World (Upright): *Saturn; Becoming conscious of your limitations and thus freeing yourself to maximize your own potential; Dancing on your limitations; Manifesting spirit on earth, or giving form to spirit; Arrival; Accepting responsibility for yourself and your circumstances; Being involved in a very trying, involved, emotional, all-encompassing experience; Infinite potential; Self-actualization; Everything is available to you; Living comfortably in the midst of complexity; The Creatrix; The Source; *She is the structure or foundation out of which you came and to which you must return. “The Universe abundantly provides for all my needs” (Greer, 2002, pp. 246-247).
- 8 of Cups (Upright): *Saturn in Pisces; Energy drain; Self-pity; Retreat; *Moving away from old values and beliefs; Abandonment; A spiritual quest; Deep soul-searching; Looking for what is missing. “I take time off to recoup my energy and rediscover my sense of self” (pp. 260-261).
By challenging the parts of myself that have become status quo, I move away from old values and return to my original structure.
Strategy In Waking-Reality:
Within the past week I challenged myself to return to a state of consciousness that is able to receive and release, fight and flee, be mutable and fixed. I returned to my natural state of fluidity.
Sun (i.e. mind; soul; ego; source of all power) conjuncted Saturn (i.e. responsibility; discipline; father; karma; focus; channeling the forces; step-by-step approach) on, approximately, the 9th and 10th of this month. My mind is beginning to “get real” and take responsibility for integrating, balancing and channeling my light and my shadow. Further, I have a Pisces sun and Gemini ascendant, both of which are mutable signs. Part of my purpose during this incarnation is to live flexibly, and I am getting back to a place of successfully doing so.
Greer, M. (2002). Tarot for your self: A workbook for personal transformation. The Career Press: Pompton Plains, NJ.
Waite, A.E. (2012). The original rider waite tarot pack: Complete with instruction booklet. United States Games Systems: Stamford, CT.
Published: JCN – December 11, 2016 12:18am